Monthly Archives: December 2015

Not holding back…

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I haven’t been writing a lot, or so I told myself. Then I realized, I have been. Only I have been doing the writing on Instagram. I even wrote a poem. It was three am in the morning so you know, it might not be all that good.

I am a creative person. I have to let that creativity out. HAVE TO. For some reason I was so focused on my blog being that outlet. Instagram is actually much more me. I love photos. I love taking photos. I love seeing others photos.  Most of the time I get more words out of the photos then the captions. Often that is how it works for me as well when I post. No words I could add would do justice to the photo.

 

So Here is a peak at what I have been up to on Instagram.

 

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This girl. This girl makes my heart explode one minute and the next we are in deep discussion. Tonight on our walk she said she wishes this world was kinder. Not the planet itself not the Earth but the people. Then we were off onto spirit animals and then something someone said at school and then she was singing and skipping with the dog ahead. She came back to say she thinks her spirit animal is a dolphin but maybe it’s a horse but once in a dream a bear talked to her. There is no not thinking with her. There is no down time. She brings me so much joy. 

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It maybe Christmas but don’t neglect yourself. A handful of #turmeric a wedge of #gingerand an entire #apple three hours cleaning the house. Cranberry relish made. Now just time to shower and get ready for family to come.

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Ten years ago,
The sun rose and set on me.
Just so, you were my everything.
Each new day brought wonder,
Each night a sense of contentment.
Wide blue eyes took it all in.
For me,it was childhood again.

Now, the sun still rises and sets.
As you grow before my eyes.
No longer so focused on wonder,
It’s tradition that rocks our world now.
Tradition of Christmas’s past.

Things change yet stay the same.
The tree all trimmed with your special touch.
No longer needed is the Daddy lift to crown the tree with a star.
Now it’s you who makes sure everything is perfect for Santa.
A job we used to do together.

All things change and that’s the way it should be.
For me, I mourn the passing of times gone by while looking forward with sparkles in my eye to years not yet come.

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So follow me over there maybe huh.

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It bit back- A Ten Things of Thankful Version (#10thankful )

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It has been a week. Sometimes we get too caught up with making progress. Sometimes we think we are past certain issues. That issue comes up and you think “breathe you got this.” I stuck to what I had decided. Then Anxiety. Then two am comes and you realize with every breath that you are not, in fact over this issue. Dammit. I can’t say I am any further in getting over it but, my resolve is back.  While depression and anxiety makes it hard to say it is rock solid…… I am choosing to believe it is rock solid.

 

I spent way too much of this week wishing things were different. I was actually thinking of skipping ten things of thankful. However, eternal optimism is hard to beat down. In the storms, looking for the good can get you through. I know that. Now to practice it. Yeah, That. 10thankful-banner

Luckily I have these three, they easily make ten things to be thankful for.

 

 

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Let’s do this thing #10thankful

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I have decided the only way I am going to get this ten things of thankful thing back in the swing is to start journaling it nightly. It seems to be what was working for me, but like so many other things, I wondered away.

  1. Sunday Singing

2. Nothing was really going the way I had planned for Monday and it was easily getting my panties in a real twist. I mean a real good wedgie that you just can’t ignore type of twist. Then I had lunch with a friend because of other things falling through that opened it up.   I am thankful for friends who treat me to lunch because they value me for me.

 

HOLY COW I BLINKED AND IT WAS SUDDENLY FRIDAY AND I WROTE NOTHING !! Now I have to think really hard to remember what actually happened.

3. Another great Hike. This time, Baxter came along.

4. Thrift shopping was very successful. I got the Buddha the table and the little leaf tray as well.

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5. Lunch with a friend

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6. Dog spoiling

7.  Cleaned all the things. And Pictures!!!! No not of the cleaned house. Because of my back, I have to break it down to three rooms one day and two rooms the next day. This is excluding the kids room and bathroom because she is responsible for that. ANYWAY. I had to stay home and clean because Truly Nolen was coming. My daughter had a harp concert 45 minutes away. Thankful a friend took pictures.

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8. When the universe aligns and I can help someone and still get done what I need to get done. Let’s explain that a bit more. So I have a friend who needed to find time to exercise. Baxter needs a walk. I can always use a walk. So now said friend comes over two to three times a week. We walk the dog 1.61 miles and shoot the shit.Plus it’s right at sunset time so we get to watch the color cloud show. Everyone wins.

9. More cleaned all the things.I am really close to having a fully clean house. Just got to do my bedroom. Probably tomorrow….maybe.

10. Truly Nolen. Even if all they did was confirm there are probably rodents and that nope he can’t do anything until the air ducts are sealed. At least, those noises are not in my head!