Sometimes I wonder how I ever survived depression and anxiety without social networks. Sometimes I think we were better off without it. Before social networking I had a therapist, now I have friends who truly care. I had some of them before but I had a hard time being a friend, let alone a Mother. This week the Universe seems to have crapped all over me. Somethings I know I am worrying about that may not come to pass. I keep telling myself stay present, deal with what’s in front of your face. Ha! Tell my brain that. This week I have seen social media gather around a few friends who felt safe enough to reach out and speak their truth. They were in a dark place. Then the dark place seemed to have descended on me as well. Sometimes social media can be a blessing to someone with depression and anxiety. A well-timed quote, photo or attagirl. Somehow, even though I think the universe is shitting all over me, I also think the universe put these people in my life. The Universe showed this person just the right quote or photo with a nudge to share it with someone. Sometimes I have found the Universe use me in that way and I am grateful.
I am pretty sure that entire paragraph could count as my ten items for my thankful list, however I have so much more. so much more.
Today I took back my house from the fruit flies. I bleached and vinegar and baking soda’ed (it’s totally a word) everything. I had some help from my daughter and from Starbucks and actually also Ultracur. Seriously. I cleaned for thirty minutes to an hour and then took a break and took one ultracur instead of taking two every couple of hours. Oh man. That is a good tool to stick in my Toolbox for later. I had never tried it that way before. I got most of my list done and some things not on the list.
School supplies, were gleefully organized and bags with my daughter’s name and classroom carefully written on them were packed up. One more week. One more week. I have loved this summer. We have had a great time. We are both pretty much in routine withdrawal though. I need my adult time back. She needs her schedule back. I am happy with what we did this summer but I would not object to her going back a week early either.
Tax-free +coupons=mostly happy pocket-book for back to school.
Then there are these photos that try to capture the thankful moments.
AND Then there was one last last extra last birthday party with her BFF’s where I made a pretty decent Angel Food Cake and sliced strawberries which we of course topped with whipped cream.
So in the end, sometimes the Universe shits on you but there is so much to be thankful for if we just remember to stay present. I know, it is so much harder to do it than say it. That is why we have another day to try all over again. We can tell ourselves over and over that tommorow is a new day. It is even if the same problems from yesterday carry over. It is a chance to stay present and do something different, try something different.
So here are two thoughts that have gotten me through this week: