I am not ready! I am not ready to walk outside and burst into sweat. I want to cling to the weather that brings me seventy-five degrees in the middle of the day. We started reaching mid to high eighties with so much humidity it might as well be raining but it’s not. On Tuesday I took my walk and both squish and I were drenched in sweat. That same night I saw an ice cream truck. It is so obvious summer is coming. Such is the way of life, the Earth turns, the seasons change. I will suffer through summer searching for the beauty.I may search for that beauty from the Air conditioning of my car or the middle of the deep end of the pool, but I will find it.
Even if I have to be like Peach in Finding Nemo
Go to your happy place go to your happy place go to your happy place go to your happy place
So National Infertility Awareness Week is approaching. It never goes away. It is always there.I know I joke and kid about my daughter but every month that went by with no positive test, is still just as painful. It is just not quite as raw anymore. I am so incredibly grateful we did conceive and carry to term. I do wonder what our lives would look like if the other pregnancies had made it. In the time it took me to have one kid, I could have had three. It’s always a heavy week for me. However, I am grateful for the lessons I learned ,the people I met and the wonderful doctors and midwives I had.
Then there was Friday. Since Monday and Wednesday didn’t go anywhere near as planned why did I still think Friday would? A small amount of hope maybe? I like planning my days. I like waking up knowing what I am going to do. IN the long run though, I woke up, I had food to eat a car to drive and a house to live in. My afternoon was very emotional rollercoasterish and upon some more reflection I am just grateful for everything we do have.
I didn’t count, but I am sure there are ten things in there.
This post is part of Ten Things of Thankful Blog hop. Where we all stop and reflect for at least ten seconds on our life and what we are thankful for because , Thanksgiving is not really once-a-year kind of thing.
You don’t have to list ten things but at least comment about one thing you are thankful for. We all need a little thankful in our lives.