I think I am on top of it. This whole self care thing. Then I realized that I was trying to find things to do other than take a walk by myself. My phone app had told me it had been three days since logged my activity…Still I didn’t want to walk.
I got the kid to school and then found myself driving to a park down the street I had not walked the trails for awhile. I don’t even remember making a conscience decision to go there. Then I thought, well its just a short walk. I can walk it a second time if I feel up to it. I started off by the little pond. It did not disappoint me.
It was early and the locals were out and about.
I spent the first bit of my walk……possibly five minutes with my head down.
It was not a bad view
Once I realized I had been walking looking down and was still inspired to snap a picture. I realized maybe I needed this walk. Just me. My phone camera. Nothing else.
Pretty sure this path leads to Narnia. Pretty sure. It sure feels magical.
I have walked this trail many many many times. I am still captured by some spots. I am still amazed at how the seasons change the same spots.
Then I saw things that really truly made my heart happy.
The red on the tree is called Red Lichen. It is a good indicator of good air quality. Breathe deep take it all in…this is the good stuff here. By this time I was feeling pretty good. Not the mess of pain that I woke up in. Why do we put off self care things we KNOW we need? The pain was less, not gone just less and slightly easier to deal with.
So I decided to see if I could locate how to get onto this other trail I could see but had not found the entrance to.
It was worth looking for.
It was exactly what I needed. I even saw a black racer snake. I didn’t scream…..big win for me. He saw me and took off.
This is when I realized THIS was what I needed. This was my sanctuary, this was my temple, my heart was full again in this moment.
Although I had a good walk. It was time to go back. I did reach the end of that new trail. I was shocked and disappointed it deadend at a golf and country club neighborhood. The way I felt it should have ended with picnic tables and a serene lake. It was that magical feeling.
I got back to the main trail. I look over at the other trail.
A different local was seeing me off. Don’t worry he was down on the shore. The trail was above this. Besides for the most part, gators don’t like humans. We don’t taste right.